Wants

Month: July 2025

  • Writing like this, is how I prefer to write, yet it’s not how I perceive I’m supposed to write

    Writing like this, is how I prefer to write, yet it’s not how I perceive I’m supposed to write

    Keywords: desteni, Equal Life, La Grua, Mind Consciousness System, personality removal, seven year journey to life

    The way I perceive I’m supposed to write is, highly articulately, didactically structured, and in a focused manner so as the readers sees where I’m going, gets the point and learns something. Well, I’m the reader, and the point is that within and as me as the mind is a lot fragments and they’re all over the place – it’s really messy; my fingers and keyboard are my broom, and the screen for this mess is the dustpan and garbage bag. Thoughts of going out with others, going for a drive over the mountains, it’s garbage – most of it. Why, because when these thoughts come up there is a feeling associated with them that perhaps I should be doing this kind of stuff, it’s what I used to do and I still can do, so why not do it – get away from the keyboard for a while. I’ll tell me why. Because it’s not me wanting to do these things; it’s not an expression of me that says “I’m going to go to the beach because that’s what I’d enjoy doing right now or tomorrow.” Honestly, it’s not what I enjoy doing right now or what I want to do. Right now and over the last several months and off and on for a long time now, this process of sitting in front of my computer, studying, investigating, writing, etc., is what I’ve decided to do, and so shall I continue doing so until I start to see what else it is that I am able to do to assist myself and all as me to free ourselves from our self-imposed prison cells of slowly but surely disintegrating into nothing or perhaps another cycle/season of Lost in Hell. Hell is, not being here in absolute control of self. Hell is not being absolutely self-directed in every moment and knowing with absolute certainty which direction I am heading and why I’m heading in that direction. Hell is being trapped into and as a mind of which I have not control over. Bliss is ignorance, and my goal is to remove this “bliss” from existence, wake up those who didn’t or don’t want to know; welcome to Hell. I must say that I feel better already; that pit in my stomach is just about gone.

    https://thomaslagrua.wordpress.com/2012/10/12/day-57-hell
  • I want to return to a more peaceful and easier blogging schedule, one [where] I enjoy myself more and stress less

    I want to return to a more peaceful and easier blogging schedule, one [where] I enjoy myself more and stress less

    Keywords: book review , blog , blog news , blogger , blogging , blogging life , febookary , febookary 2025 , personal update , reading , tbr , tbr pile , update

    So for now I’ll say I need to cut back on the blog tours big time. I know I’m doing it to myself by taking them all on, but it just is too much now I’m having to take out more time for myself, in order to rest and recover from recurring bouts of illness, and to do other things offline. I also want to spend more time on doing more different things on my blog, and to really enjoy/love blogging rather than finding it a bit of a stressful thing which lately it has been. I’ve never really found blogging to be too stressful (well I did on old blogs but not on this one), but fulfilling specific blog tour dates has taken it’s toll recently

    https://thestrawberrypost.wordpress.com/2025/04/05/blogging-personal-and-belated-febookary-updates
  • I want to be able to publish my thoughts and opinions on the internet, in a safe and manageable way

    I want to be able to publish my thoughts and opinions on the internet, in a safe and manageable way

    Keywords: {0}

    Did I mention front end work gives me a headache? An hour of prodding at the WordPress stuff and I had to change focus. But we return to the dance, now attempting to put some semblance of structure on this blog. I know what I want, and in theory it should be pretty simple. The real question is if I can convince things to look the way they should… I suppose by the time this post is up, you will know what I settled on. I will say, I have a memory of templates being a lot more interesting than what I was finding as I set things up. In some ways this version of WP is far more powerful than I expected. The ease with which I could upload an image, and set the alt-text if required was fantastic. But trying to figure out where to change the theme which in theory manages which templates I could use for a page or a post? That ended up being somewhat beyond me. Once again, foiled by my desire for simple things to be simple.

    https://pippah.net/2024/11/21/all-i-wanted-was-a-blog
  • I want to do my own thing!

    I want to do my own thing!

    Keywords: Agnes in world, Agnes TED talks, Motivational speaker blog

    That’s why I started a blog. To pull back that huge rush. I can no longer use my phone to scroll senselessly. I don’t want to do it on social media like everyone else does. I want to move forward with thought, forcefully but at the same time softly. Noticing the beauty of life and the tiny details that make up the world.

    https://krapsakas.wordpress.com/2024/06/30/in-the-meantime-recap-and-building-a-new-life
  • During the exercise, I found myself increasingly having more energy and liveliness in the morning, less stressed and overwhelmed, and more appreciative of the moments I spent with my friends in a way where I wanted to savor them

    During the exercise, I found myself increasingly having more energy and liveliness in the morning, less stressed and overwhelmed, and more appreciative of the moments I spent with my friends in a way where I wanted to savor them

    Keywords: {0}

    I think the gratitude letter was more helpful because it got me to be more direct and explicit with my gratitude by putting me in a position where I was going to actively tell someone why I am grateful for them. To write a letter, you have to be introspective and reflective and think deeply about what the person’s importance is to you. In this way, I was going a lot further than the first exercise in terms of acknowledging and expressing my gratitude toward people in my life. Going forward, I think I want to find a way to incorporate the gratitude letter into my life, but I would probably make some changes. I don’t want to write a full-blown letter every time, but it’d be beneficial and important for me to text people in my life a short message explaining my gratitude for them more often. I think this will allow me to actively express gratitude and appreciation and will allow to let a lot of different people in my life know what they mean to me.

    https://katielambertdotblog.wordpress.com/2023/04/11/gratitude
  • I want my work to be rewarding and I want to feel productive most days

    I want my work to be rewarding and I want to feel productive most days

    Keywords: work

    I want to be helping people in some form and I want to be able to collaborate on things with people. I can’t imagine being holed up in an office all day alone. My dream job allows me to take a nice long lunch break too, so I can go on a walk to a nice restaurant with some coworkers and debrief about my morning.

    https://pinkdinosaurs70084588.wordpress.com/2023/04/10/my-dream-job
  • I wanted to make sure to show him how much he means to me on his special day

    I wanted to make sure to show him how much he means to me on his special day

    Keywords: Homemaking , Marriage , baseball , birthday , celebration , friends , God , homemaker , husband , surprise

    My husband loves surprises but tends to discover or thwart them accidentally, so coming up with surprises he would never think of was quite a task.

    https://livinonfaithblog.wordpress.com/2023/08/22/happy-birthday-to-my-one-and-only
  • I want to go to happy hour for espresso martinis with the girls, but I don’t want to get nothing done the next day

    I want to go to happy hour for espresso martinis with the girls, but I don’t want to get nothing done the next day

    Keywords: Adulting , Back-to-school , balance , College , fitness , goals , gym , mindset , Motivation , social , Twenties

    I used to struggle with discipline, but discipline has become a habit now that I have practiced enough. The more I follow through and show up for myself the morning after, the more confident and eager I am to balance these two worlds. Go to the happy hour, and don’t let it stop you from a productive day. Now that I’ve cultivated a disciplined set of wellness habit, I am working on being okay with taking a day or two off because I know I am discipline enough to jump right back into my groove.

    https://shaudehfarjami.blog/2023/09/23/i-cant-go-out-im-sick
  • Even though I wanted to fit in with things around here, I have never for one second wanted to stop being Canadian

    Even though I wanted to fit in with things around here, I have never for one second wanted to stop being Canadian

    Keywords: Awesome Stuff , Good Vibes Only , Canada , Canadian , Living in the south , Newcomers , US

    That northern identity is VERY important to me – it is truly in my blood. I have continued to embrace my cultural heritage, traditions, and values and tried to share them with people here. There’s a group of teachers from one of my old schools who still talks about the great Canadian Thanksgiving dinners we shared as a staff (truly one of my greatest memories of living here), and I know a lot of folks down here who worship at the temple of Butter Tarts because they learned about them from me. I try to remind myself that diversity strengthens communities, and by being true to myself (and my love of poutine), I can bring a fresh perspective to the table.

    https://dreamalittledreamofmeblogonline.wordpress.com/2023/05/17/alien
  • I wanted help

    I wanted help

    Keywords: {0}

    the first one did a quick evaluation to do a referral, the second one was only available in a limited capacity – state funded sessions, the third one is from my pocket, for the long run).

    https://thequietqueer.wordpress.com/2022/02/20/hi-there