Keywords: Mental Health , Wholistic Wellness , abuse , attachment , change , healing , integrity , joy , love , narcissism , trauma , trauma healing , wellness
I’m realizing I’ll have to give it to myself awkwardly. Flailingly, insufficiently… but, at least consistently. Semi-consistently. Enough to show me that I am here most of the time.
Keywords: Life in general , Personal Growth
For years I had disconnected myself from my own needs. I had found that ignoring them was a survival strategy, experience had taught me that I was safer that way. This wasn’t a sustainable approach. I’d become so good at hiding and ignoring my needs that I spent years going through life numb to the good experiences I should have been having. All my actions were routed in expectations and obligations. When that got too much for me I turned to food, drink and drugs to fuel actions. It was ok that I needed to spend the day in bed, it was a hangover rather than depression caused by my unhealed trauma. It’s fine that I drank before I went out, that was me being savvy with money as I wouldn’t spend so much at the club. My binge eating was tied to the days when I was suffering malnutrition from before my adoption (I don’t recall that, I think I may have made it up. I recall walking to collect water with a container on my head as part of my chores, but never hunger…) and the list of justified negative behaviour that sustained the numbing of my emotions is endless. This was never sustainable, and that’s a good thing.
Keywords: burnout , creativity , freinds , grad school , health , jail , job , marraige , mental wellbeing , middle age , new writer , writer , writing , adventure , friends , grand teton , new writers , writing commmunity , yellowstone
It’s slowly occurring to me that it may take a while to recharge fully. After 22 years of serving others, especially after this past year and a half, it’s time for me to take care of myself. I keep reminding myself that I need a break.
Keywords: self care , thoughts , boredom , entertainment , life , screen , selfcare , technology
“I am bored” I remember saying these words as a child, having nothing to do. I don’t get as easily bored anymore, either because I don’t find the time, or the mental space to do so. When I say I am bored now, it’s usually followed by more. I am bored of scrolling through social media, I am bored of watching Netflix, I am bored of doing the same thing over and over again. Oh how much the world has changed, and how much have our minds.https://jijithinks.wordpress.com/2021/08/31/i-want-to-be-bored-again
Keywords: life + style , self care and worthiness , anxiety , helplines , postpartum , postpartum anxiety , self care
Remember you are not alone in this – so many these days suffer from anxiety, seek support from others when you need it, there is nothing to be ashamed of. Reaching out shows strength and also demonstrates bravery for speaking out.https://justyouraveragerose.com.au/2021/08/09/anxiety-acknowledging-my-anxiety-and-knowing-you-can-overcome-it
Keywords: blog , anxiety , don’t care , friends , rabbit hole , vulnerability , what if
I need to listen to me. I need to live my truth. I need to explore my own beliefs.https://journeytoexist.com/2021/08/03/dont-care
Keywords: blog , being myself , life , expectations , family , food , eating , weight , body , transformation , eating disorder
but I can’t change what is surrounding me. My family, society, etc etc.https://chrismaggieo.wordpress.com/2021/08/02/food