Keywords: I AM , me , myself , whoIam
I’m a person with a story. I’ve seen numerous effects, and I’ve had to do numerous effects that I would not want to do again. But I’ve learned from them, and it has made me who I’m moment. I’m a person who has studies and passions. I’ve the capability to feel happiness, sadness, wrathfulness, and more. I’m also an individual with my own studies, solicitations, and pretensions in life. All of these effects make me who I’m as a person or existent.
Keywords: Life in general , Personal Growth
For years I had disconnected myself from my own needs. I had found that ignoring them was a survival strategy, experience had taught me that I was safer that way. This wasn’t a sustainable approach. I’d become so good at hiding and ignoring my needs that I spent years going through life numb to the good experiences I should have been having. All my actions were routed in expectations and obligations. When that got too much for me I turned to food, drink and drugs to fuel actions. It was ok that I needed to spend the day in bed, it was a hangover rather than depression caused by my unhealed trauma. It’s fine that I drank before I went out, that was me being savvy with money as I wouldn’t spend so much at the club. My binge eating was tied to the days when I was suffering malnutrition from before my adoption (I don’t recall that, I think I may have made it up. I recall walking to collect water with a container on my head as part of my chores, but never hunger…) and the list of justified negative behaviour that sustained the numbing of my emotions is endless. This was never sustainable, and that’s a good thing.
Keywords: burnout , creativity , freinds , grad school , health , jail , job , marraige , mental wellbeing , middle age , new writer , writer , writing , adventure , friends , grand teton , new writers , writing commmunity , yellowstone
It’s slowly occurring to me that it may take a while to recharge fully. After 22 years of serving others, especially after this past year and a half, it’s time for me to take care of myself. I keep reminding myself that I need a break.
Keywords: general , blogger , new blog , newborn , social media
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