I am so beyond lucky to be in their lives

Keywords: chronic disease , endometriosis , infertility , reproductive health , reproductive issues , womens health

My husband and I did go through fertility treatment and countless years of tears when my period would start. Am I just all cried out? Have I truly come to peace with the fact that I will never conceive or give birth? I hope so. And I should, right? Because how lucky am I to have two INCREDIBLE (yes, INCREDIBLE) step-kids who love and accept me as their Mol-Mol. Two amazing step-kids who I have been a part of their worlds since almost 4 and 1.5 years old.

https://lifewithendoblog.com/2021/10/13/sterile

Doing something simply because you love it is enough — more than enough

Keywords: Writing , meaning , purpose , Moral Compass , acceptance , depression , anxiety , emotions , creativity , belief , blogging

My writing has given me clarity about what I want to do next. I will be starting an online degree in psychology next year with a long-term view of changing careers. I also have an idea for a number of books I plan to write.

https://clear-air-turbulence.com/2021/09/27/why-i-write

I want people I care about to be happy and I go into DON’T WORRY BE HAPPY mode sometimes

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I realized that that whole chain of traumatic memories and accompanying feels boiled down to two things for me. Fear of abandonment and rejection. Breaking news: when I boil them down and process them almost ALL of my negative self talk and negative emotions are rooted in those fears. That people I *think* love me will just…leave. And the curtain will fall and it will just be me wondering why I make everyone leave.

https://emdrrecovery.wordpress.com/2021/09/25/little-things

I want a job that I love, one that inspires me, one that challenged me to learn new things, and one that will never become a 9-5 built on routines and patterns with a limit on how much there is to learn

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Being a university student was my way of choosing a career path that can change and grow with multiple possibilities of where it could lead me. An opportunity to learn new concepts and skills and expand the possibilities of [what] I can be when I grow up.

https://akbuniwork.wordpress.com/2022/03/16/what-being-a-university-studnet-means-to-me

These are my recent thoughts, take it or leave it

Keywords: depression , emotions , fear , hopelessness , life , lost , wonder

I fear that I’ll never find that soulmate and have another family. I’ve always gravitated toward people who have maternal traits or who possess a comforting and guiding trait. I fear to never allow someone in my life who would see that I am full of love and I can give back. I fear that my past limits my future. I fear that I cannot be transparent about the obstacles in my life that have shaped who I am today. I fear that I will not have an impact on people. I fear that I will never want to show love and accept love because of simply it not working out. I fear having expectations because I have continuously been dissapointed. I wonder if hope and prayer is just this false illusion that comforts us in the moments of despair and hopelessness. I’ve always referred to myself as a meandering lost soul. I continue to search for what my passion and drive is, but not certain of how to apply it to make me successful.

https://ellhines.wordpress.com/2018/04/24/fear