These are my recent thoughts, take it or leave it

Keywords: depression , emotions , fear , hopelessness , life , lost , wonder

I fear that I’ll never find that soulmate and have another family. I’ve always gravitated toward people who have maternal traits or who possess a comforting and guiding trait. I fear to never allow someone in my life who would see that I am full of love and I can give back. I fear that my past limits my future. I fear that I cannot be transparent about the obstacles in my life that have shaped who I am today. I fear that I will not have an impact on people. I fear that I will never want to show love and accept love because of simply it not working out. I fear having expectations because I have continuously been dissapointed. I wonder if hope and prayer is just this false illusion that comforts us in the moments of despair and hopelessness. I’ve always referred to myself as a meandering lost soul. I continue to search for what my passion and drive is, but not certain of how to apply it to make me successful.

https://ellhines.wordpress.com/2018/04/24/fear

I will hit publish before my anxious self can get in the way and put fear in me to either not post or save this as a draft

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I want to push out of my routine and create a new one. A new routine where I write and take photos in addition to working. A new me where if I don’t get my workout in but laughed and played with my family instead I am ok with that. If I want to take some photos the dishes can wait. It’s easy for me to say but harder for me to do as I struggle with OCD and anxiety. I don’t want my children to grow up OCD or anxious like me. I want to encourage my children to grow and explore things and showing them is the best example. My son loves to write and so do I. I am always encouraging him to write but never taking my own advice. So here I am writing.

https://purplemessmom.family.blog/2021/08/06/take-my-own-advice

I am still nowhere near where I want to be but today is the day I decided to take that step and start my journey!

Keywords: blogger , family , lifestyle

As we go along this journey together I will dive into my past, present and where id like to be in the future, I am excited to take you along this journey with me and you will get true raw content from me, no hidden bits or bobs! I hope you’re ready…My life is certainly not boring!

https://stephlaurenxo.wordpress.com/2021/08/22/my-little-life

I like the peace of leaving work at the office gate, coming home to family, cooking dinner, eating in peace, and spending peaceful weekends with the people I love and care for

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My work enables me to spend time on my hobbies, spend time with my family, take sufficient time off and afford vacations. At no point I want to be in a job that demands my mind to be constantly occupied, to keep coming up with a plan every other day, to keep thinking out of the box, to be chasing something constantly.

https://myblogteju.wordpress.com/2021/07/27/i-like-my-9-to-5-job