Wants

Month: December 2025

  • I want to be *me* again

    I want to be *me* again

    Keywords: Daily Life , exercise , fitness , motivation

    I was an outdoor leader, a summer camp counselor, a horse logger, an all around stable rat. Even while pregnant, I was sliding 60 pound bales of hay across the snow to feed the horses (much to my midwives dismay). The thought that, post child, I’d have to make a long haul, concentrated effort to regain things like strength and muscle didn’t even cross my fluffy, post college, hormonal mind.

    https://weareontheloose.com/2016/01/12/its-mostly-a-rhythmic-thump
  • I want to be there to support my husband just as he has supported me through my work

    I want to be there to support my husband just as he has supported me through my work

    Keywords: army life , crafts diy projects , it is what it is , job related , army , army wife , crafts , splatter paint , team builders

    Needless to say, getting used to being the “dutiful” wife has been an adjustment. And maybe I am having a harder time with it because I still have yet to move into the world of an army base where this is just every day life. I am sure that I will be so grateful and relieved when I actually do move for this support network to be in place. And what I am saying may sound like I am unhappy with this group, which is not the case. I do appreciate being kept in the loop since Tom’s world is about to be turned upside down. And these women know the best way to be of support not only to our partners but also to each other. I am just not used to my husband defining who I am, and this is a huge adjustment for me to make. I mean my life’s work is all about respecting everyone’s individuality and being your own person. So when I hear these messages from the Army like “Oh your wife could move here with you to work at the pool” you can see how there could be some frustration and some “You don’t know me!” attitude going through my head.

    https://findingmyyellow.com/2012/08/14/there-is-no-i-in-team
  • I want to post more, to be helpful to others, or perhaps even inspire … but lately I can barely help myself, so I guess that’s where I need to continue to focus my energy and attention for now

    I want to post more, to be helpful to others, or perhaps even inspire … but lately I can barely help myself, so I guess that’s where I need to continue to focus my energy and attention for now

    Keywords: anxiety , cancer , crisis , depression , family , healing , heart , kids , leiomyosarcoma , lung nodules , mental health , ptsd , radiation , relationships , scans , stage iv , suffering

    I realize this post probably doesn’t sound a whole lot like me… but I don’t feel much like myself anymore anyway. My poor husband and kids have had to watch me struggle to get through each day, to cry and cry because I can’t do the things I want, or even Need to do, and be ok with everything changing More because mom can’t tolerate much of anything. I absolutely Hate having to take life day by day. And after 4.5 years of being forced to do that against my will, now I have to take things hour by hour, sometimes minute by minute. I do not have the luxury of planning anything for the future. As human beings, we thrive on having things to which we can look forward … I have fear and terror of what could happen. With a teeny tiny sliver of hope that I am Really struggling to maintain.

    https://laurenmgdoyle.com/2024/06/17/doing-my-best