Tag: chasing

I wanted not to be with family and I wasn’t alone

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My made family did a Thanksgiving, which I have done many times for many other holidays, including Christmas, many times. I love those holidays. There is no watch what you say, moments of feeling worthless, having to fight to be considered a grown-up (even though I’ve taken care of myself all by myself for 20 years) I don’t cry on the holidays I spend with my made family. I feel wanted. Family why do we let them get by with so much more than we do other people? I can honestly say I have cut off some of my family members and it’s amazing, tricky because some of the family I still talk to and love, and they love me which is an important factor, and some of them want the traditional idea of family. Family is an interesting thing but it’s something we are all chasing.
https://lifeofasinglegirl680382845.wordpress.com/2023/07/04/family

2026-01-06
maybe i just want to be caught, secretly

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maybe i just like being a tad bit out of reach, but not so out of reach that i am gone. not so out of reach that no one can reach me anymore, that i’m in my own place far away from reality.
https://margheritaswords.wordpress.com/2021/08/13/you-cant-catch-me

2022-05-25
Isn’t this what I wanted?

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I wanted to be away to escape unresolved issues I had been stuck with my whole life but once the dust had settled, I found myself looking elsewhere again. What if I’m always going to be stuck in limbo? What if I can’t shake off the idea that the grass is going to be greener on the other side, only to be disappointed once I get there? I don’t know how to stop chasing the elusive notion of happiness without succumbing to the thought that this is probably it. As I sit on the cusp of adulthood, I find myself growing increasingly restless. With places to be, people to meet and stories to write, I still don’t know what it is that I want to say.
https://fawnedof.wordpress.com/2021/06/04/on-the-other-side

2021-11-23