Wants

Tag: disappointed

  • When I was a kid I wanted to be a cop

    When I was a kid I wanted to be a cop

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    I thought [it] was a honorable job. My opinion of law enforcement has changed over the years but I still remember how I felt about the idea of wearing the badge. I used to dream and have aspirations. Why did I stop? I got to the point where my biggest aspiration is making it to my next day off alive. I think that at some point we inadvertently decided that this was it. This mundane lifestyle is all we will ever have. We don’t think that anything can change our lives at this point in the game. We stopped caring and wanting to be better. Having dreams is a let down at this point in our lives.

    https://guerrerowrites.com/2021/07/14/back-to-life
  • Isn’t this what I wanted?

    Isn’t this what I wanted?

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    I wanted to be away to escape unresolved issues I had been stuck with my whole life but once the dust had settled, I found myself looking elsewhere again. What if I’m always going to be stuck in limbo? What if I can’t shake off the idea that the grass is going to be greener on the other side, only to be disappointed once I get there? I don’t know how to stop chasing the elusive notion of happiness without succumbing to the thought that this is probably it. As I sit on the cusp of adulthood, I find myself growing increasingly restless. With places to be, people to meet and stories to write, I still don’t know what it is that I want to say.

    https://fawnedof.wordpress.com/2021/06/04/on-the-other-side