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I think that’s exactly why I’m not sure I’ll get out of the deep end like some people. I won’t learn from this. I won’t be lucky enough to grow from the lessons learned. Instead, I’m willingly pushing myself down further because seeing him with anyone else provides me with a gut-wrenching feeling. Not like most people who have watched their ex move onto someone else and it tore them apart. For me it’s more of a tightening and sickening feeling, because I know seeing him with someone else doesn’t mean I’m jealous. It means I’m scared and not for myself, but for them. I’ve hidden in the shadows patiently waiting for his next victim, but I’m always too late. Each time a new woman appears I don’t have enough to actually get the bastard. I love him, but not in a way a woman should love a man. I love the chase. I love the thrill that I almost catch him every time and yet he’s still always one step ahead allowing me another day to plan my next move. Even though I know it’s numbing every piece of my existence and is slowly killing me from the inside out, I can’t shake the feeling of loving the game so much it puts me in danger.
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