Wants

Tag: relationship

  • I want to do so much more

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    Early in 2017 my partner and I decided to go our own ways for various reasons and being a young 72 yr old I am not quite ready for the settling down life just yet

    https://luxxielugs.com/2017/12/18/early-2017-review
  • I want to be there to support my husband just as he has supported me through my work

    I want to be there to support my husband just as he has supported me through my work

    Keywords: army life , crafts diy projects , it is what it is , job related , army , army wife , crafts , splatter paint , team builders

    Needless to say, getting used to being the “dutiful” wife has been an adjustment. And maybe I am having a harder time with it because I still have yet to move into the world of an army base where this is just every day life. I am sure that I will be so grateful and relieved when I actually do move for this support network to be in place. And what I am saying may sound like I am unhappy with this group, which is not the case. I do appreciate being kept in the loop since Tom’s world is about to be turned upside down. And these women know the best way to be of support not only to our partners but also to each other. I am just not used to my husband defining who I am, and this is a huge adjustment for me to make. I mean my life’s work is all about respecting everyone’s individuality and being your own person. So when I hear these messages from the Army like “Oh your wife could move here with you to work at the pool” you can see how there could be some frustration and some “You don’t know me!” attitude going through my head.

    https://findingmyyellow.com/2012/08/14/there-is-no-i-in-team
  • I wanted to believe in love so desperately

    I wanted to believe in love so desperately

    Keywords: personal

    When I was 21 years old, I met a boy in class. We embarked on a roller coaster of emotions that would span over eight years—a cycle of ending things and becoming friends, on and off. I wish to share this story because I believe it holds a valuable lesson: not to sacrifice for someone who doesn’t reciprocate your feelings. There are no rewards, no successes, and time lost that can never be reclaimed. I struggled mentally for this man, at times doubting if I would survive. I often felt unsafe.

    https://afriendorfoe.home.blog/2024/05/13/new-chapter
  • I wanted more than anything to stay there with her

    I wanted more than anything to stay there with her

    Keywords: abandonment , bipolar , childhood trauma , depression , parenting

    but instead I was returned to NY. To my closet, and my dashed dreams. I think it would have been better to have never seen her life out there in Ohio. I think my hope was almost extinguished, but instead that intermittent reinforcement came instead. I went back to the hoping. My little heart just wouldn’t quit. Maybe she would come for me, or maybe she would take me there to her perfect house and her big perfect tub.

    https://thebipolarfarmer.com/2012/06/07/intermittent-reinforcement
  • I have always known that I wanted to be a mother

    I have always known that I wanted to be a mother

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    Today, I am so happy with the woman that I am becoming. I find myself utilizing and/or activating a new superpower. You can call it a new way of living, reacting, or responding to past people, places, or things around me. Recently, I have been finding my voice, passions, and desires. This change has me socializing more and just enjoying life outside the house. This has my daughter in a tizzy. She is so used to mommy being home with her and giving her “my time.” It’s been difficult for her to get used to. I am also big on gentle parenting. I teach my children ways to manage their emotions. They learn to deal with their feelings but not live in them. We have been working on this for a couple of months. Sometimes we experience setbacks and have to start over again. I have no doubt that this is working. Yes, it will take time. Please share any suggestions on how you helped your children get through a tough transition in life.

    It’s complicated (three part series: title from part 1, quote from part 3): 1. https://bbclub.blog/2025/08/04/emotional-weekend-thoughts-a-two-part-series 2. https://bbclub.blog/2025/08/04/my-emotional-weekend-three-part-series 3. https://bbclub.blog/2025/08/04/my-emotional-weekend-three-part-series-2
  • I want to be more than just the man who lives under the same roof — I want to be their father

    I want to be more than just the man who lives under the same roof — I want to be their father

    Keywords: Journal Entries Turned to Naratives , personal story , human connections , trials

    I sometimes feel like a stranger, as if no one truly understands how to treat me, reducing our relationship to that of mere roommates. I can’t help but feel unappreciated and unknown.

    https://almensbelief.wordpress.com/2023/05/17/rediscovering-meaning-in-lifes-emptiness
  • I view her as the blueprint of the kind of woman and mother I want to be

    I view her as the blueprint of the kind of woman and mother I want to be

    Keywords: Volume 1

    Now that I’ve entered into motherhood myself the bond I have with my mother has blossomed in a complete and total new way. My mom has truly become my best friend, confidant, and advisor.

    https://monasmomentsblog.wordpress.com/2023/05/14/super-woman
  • Once I forgave you I became the girl I wanted to be my whole life

    Once I forgave you I became the girl I wanted to be my whole life

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    Forgiving you made me realize my self worth, which was so longly waited for. I learned how to love myself and turn my weakness into strength.

    https://jewelsblogsblog.wordpress.com/2019/11/28/to-the-man-that-taught-me-more-by-leaving-than-staying-thank-you
  • Writing like this, is how I prefer to write, yet it’s not how I perceive I’m supposed to write

    Writing like this, is how I prefer to write, yet it’s not how I perceive I’m supposed to write

    Keywords: desteni, Equal Life, La Grua, Mind Consciousness System, personality removal, seven year journey to life

    The way I perceive I’m supposed to write is, highly articulately, didactically structured, and in a focused manner so as the readers sees where I’m going, gets the point and learns something. Well, I’m the reader, and the point is that within and as me as the mind is a lot fragments and they’re all over the place – it’s really messy; my fingers and keyboard are my broom, and the screen for this mess is the dustpan and garbage bag. Thoughts of going out with others, going for a drive over the mountains, it’s garbage – most of it. Why, because when these thoughts come up there is a feeling associated with them that perhaps I should be doing this kind of stuff, it’s what I used to do and I still can do, so why not do it – get away from the keyboard for a while. I’ll tell me why. Because it’s not me wanting to do these things; it’s not an expression of me that says “I’m going to go to the beach because that’s what I’d enjoy doing right now or tomorrow.” Honestly, it’s not what I enjoy doing right now or what I want to do. Right now and over the last several months and off and on for a long time now, this process of sitting in front of my computer, studying, investigating, writing, etc., is what I’ve decided to do, and so shall I continue doing so until I start to see what else it is that I am able to do to assist myself and all as me to free ourselves from our self-imposed prison cells of slowly but surely disintegrating into nothing or perhaps another cycle/season of Lost in Hell. Hell is, not being here in absolute control of self. Hell is not being absolutely self-directed in every moment and knowing with absolute certainty which direction I am heading and why I’m heading in that direction. Hell is being trapped into and as a mind of which I have not control over. Bliss is ignorance, and my goal is to remove this “bliss” from existence, wake up those who didn’t or don’t want to know; welcome to Hell. I must say that I feel better already; that pit in my stomach is just about gone.

    https://thomaslagrua.wordpress.com/2012/10/12/day-57-hell
  • My friends have had a few boyfriends I wanted to punch in the face but I didn’t because I love my friends

    My friends have had a few boyfriends I wanted to punch in the face but I didn’t because I love my friends

    Keywords: Becoming Healthier , Health and Wellness

    Why I love my therapist… first she can’t tell people what I say. I don’t need to worry about rumors or my words getting twisted. Secondly, If the relationship ends its not because I was a bad friend or because they didn’t agree with a choice I made for my own life. Odds are my insurance doesn’t cover it anymore or I can’t afford it, or they changed places. Third reason… We do it over the phone now. I don’t need to worry about going to some place and taking more time out of my crazy schedule that I don’t really have. I have almost zero time for myself. This makes it easier. Last but not least when I tell my therapist certain things her emotions don’t get wrapped up into my problems. When I tell her how my boyfriend treats me… there isn’t an extra layer of anger in her response.

    https://motherhoodandanarchy.wordpress.com/2023/08/04/i-could-never