I want some purpose

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to be in touch with nature, to do things much more traditionally. To ditch the TV, the busy traffic, social media, and to get out there and do things. My yearning for more, something actually meaningful is becoming overwhelming and actually frustratingly depressing. The more time that goes by that I’m deprived of my natural gender role, the more my natural instincts are kicking in, the more frustrated and discontent I am becoming with life, the less bright I see my future becoming. I know, such a morbid post, but I’m just bluntly and simply expressing my thoughts and feelings as a woman in my circumstances and in this day and age, I know I am not alone.

https://1juhd75jnw84nghas5.wordpress.com/2021/07/06/first-post-female-frustations

Why do I have to feel like I need to justify myself though?

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When I was a kid, I didn’t ask myself such a question because I’ve always thought it was the thing to do, the purpose of every woman, the reason we find a partner and get married… It’s only when I turned 30 that I realised my mum would have been pregnant for the second time by that age. And I didn’t feel like I was going to be ready myself anytime soon. I heard a lot of comments such as “You’re turning 30 now, the clock is ticking!” but deep down I think I already knew it wasn’t for me. I didn’t know for sure until my little sister fell pregnant, almost 3 years ago. She announced it with pictures and I cried when I realised she was telling me she had a bun in the oven. I cried with joy, the news made my sister and her husband so happy.

https://biggirlbigcity.blog/2020/10/23/do-you-want-kids