I deserve happiness

Keywords: the buildup , encouragment , mental health , rant , trauma , trigger warning , tw suicide , work

I want to have the tangible proof of my existence post-trauma. I want to be holistically evaluated for my progress between 2016 and now. I want to be unconditionally loved. I want to be listened to and believed and respected. These things take so much time. I am such a tired person. I am constantly planning, advocating for myself, and hoping and praying. I work my ass off.

Progress vs. Validation – Victoria Smith (wordpress.com)

Why is it so important to prove myself to the world?

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Honestly the answer is I’m not too sure. I don’t want to work for fame or to feed my pride. I want to work for God. I want to work to use my gifts as blessings. To use it for the people who need it. I need to shift my mindset to that of using my work for God and his glory. Not for my own pride, for my own successes and achievements. I need to believe that along the way, God will grant me with these.

https://unquietwanders.wordpress.com/2020/11/22/being-someone