Wants

Month: June 2026

  • I wanted someone, no one wants to walk through this life alone

    I wanted someone, no one wants to walk through this life alone

    Keywords: blog , Life , love , relationships

    I asked God that before I die can I please experience true love. Two years of birthday wishes later I met someone. That day I left my house headed to Lowes and at the last second decided to go in the opposite direction to Home Depot. You can’t tell me that God didn’t send me there. When he asked for my number I almost did not give it to him out of fear. I had not given my number out in years. I’m glad I did he’s different than any other guy I’ve ever dated. He shows up for me in ways that I dreamed of. It’s been over a year now and things are going well. I get to show up as my authentic self and don’t have to try hard to please him. I’ll admit that even though I’m happy here I’ve had times where my self destructing thoughts tried to creep in. Block, block, block, I’m staying hopeful this time around.

    https://off-the-top.blog/2024/02/17/i-love-love
  • I decided [it] was time to realistically look at my life and if that was the right way to spend every day of it

    I decided [it] was time to realistically look at my life and if that was the right way to spend every day of it

    Keywords: personal

    I said YES, because training and eating clean made me who I am, BUT from my 26 years old I wanted MORE than being a well trained machine, a sculpted body. I wanted to travel, meet people, have a broader view of options for my future and career. Because I know in the future I might regret it. And those things dont come knocking at your door, not even at the gym’s one lol. So now I’m working on keeping my “dark side” under control, not feeling miserable if I’m not doing 6 cardio a week but 4-5, or if I’m traveling and training won’t be perfect, or if for a night or two I won’t be sleeping, because I will gain something else: memories, life experiences, interesting conversations and meetings, friendship. And I will still be my personal best, just more “complete”.

    https://sofiavenanzetti.com/2011/04/23/the-dark-side