I want to understand the abuse and trauma from their point of view and forgive it from my point of view

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I just need one sentence to describe my family. They all need to go to therapy. In between all the showers of love and adoration I received in my childhood, there was a lot of their self-baggage inflicted upon me. It led to years of unintended abuse, trauma and neglect from their part. It started to build my anxiety and depression.

https://bubbersandme.wordpress.com/2022/07/30/hello-world

This is where I want to be

Keywords: Homemaking , Mamahood

Theo did not like it at first. The coffee grinder is loud and frightening to him, unless Mama holds him. He does not want to be on the floor while Mama tends to the electric kettle, which is far too interesting for him to not watch up close himself. What’s more, the coffee grounds smell so good, and look like dirt. He wants to feel that for himself too, and he loves to grab the spoon Mama uses to remove the grounds from the grinder, spilling them on the counter. Mama sighs, but Theo finds it so enthralling.

https://morningmercies4.wordpress.com/2024/02/07/slow-coffee

Daddy, Mummy I want Bunny … I want to go home … Help me

Keywords: corona-virus , covid-19 , family , health care , writing , bloganuary , covid , pandemic , polio , toy

I don’t remember the next several months other than visits through the window and people in white, wearing masks, doing things to me. There were periods in a whirlpool tub where a nurse held me while the water moved around me and someone else moved my legs. There was another room where we went to do more exercises, and someone else moved my scrawny legs.

https://imagesbyceci.com/2022/01/04/first-love

I haven’t always known that I wanted to work with children

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I actually started out as an Animal Science major with the dream of getting to work with horses, that eventually shifted into me wanting to become a nurse. In my early 20’s I became a phlebotomist which is what sparked my interest in nursing, however after working in a hospital I decided it wasn’t for me and I began looking into other career paths. During this time I started nannying, I have always loved kids and have had a bit of a knack for working with them, but I never considered it as a career path. That was until I started nannying for my current families, these little girls opened my eyes to how truly incredible children are and how amazing their minds are. About a month into working with these families I knew I wanted and needed to educate myself on a deeper level so that I could not only provide the best environment for these girls, but provide developmentally appropriate activities and guidance for them. When I decided to focus on early childcare and development as a career path, I was pretty nervous! I struggled a lot in school, from elementary school up until about my junior year of highschool when I was finally diagnosed with ADHD. I was a C’s and D’s student most of my life, constantly taking summer school to make up for the classes I failed during the school year. If you would have told younger Hannah that she was going into the field of education she would have laughed in your face. However, when I went back to school I started slow at a junior college in Denton, Tx. North Central Texas College (NCTC) was where I attended school, I was still living in California so all my classes were online, this was the start of my love for online learning. I was thriving, my professors seemed to actually care about me as a student, I was able to work at my own pace and I wasn’t scared of asking questions or answering things wrong. My confidence as a student grew so much I decided it was time for the next step, finding a university! I looked into a lot of different schools, however none of them had the program I was looking for online until I came across Oklahoma State University. I had looked into OSU as a highschooler when I was still very AG focused and I just knew at the time academically it was not going to be possible for me, so you can imagine how excited I was when I discovered they had my new major available for online students. This excitement continued to grow as I discovered I was eligible to apply and when I finally got accepted my life was forever changed in the best way possible. While at OSU I have continued to grow so much as a student, so much so that I was able to obtain a 4.0 during my most recent spring semester. Younger Hannah was doing backflips, never in a million years would I have thought I would be capable of this level of academic success. My hard work was further rewarded when I received a scholarship, another moment younger Hannah would have never imagined possible for herself. I am so grateful to have access to all the resources available to me and I love getting to apply my knowledge in real life situations. As I previously stated, I currently work as a private childcare provider/nanny, and it’s such a rewarding job. However, I hope to use my degree to open my own childcare center. My goal is for it to be a daycare, but an upscale daycare. We will still have a structured program, but I also really appreciate the Montessori approach so I would like for it to have elements of that as well. I am beyond excited to watch my dreams continue to unfold and I am even more excited to continue learning, growing , and sharing my knowledge with you all!

https://simpleteachingsblog.wordpress.com/2023/11/07/about-me

For years, I hid these stories because I wanted to fit in, to be normal, to have regular childhood experiences – whatever those were supposed to be

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As an adult, I’m happy I had the hands-off, learn-to-entertain-yourself childhood I did. We weren’t always technological Luddites. We still watched cartoons and played shitty Flash games, but we weren’t pawned off or pushed in front of a screen by the adults. They didn’t plan out every second of our day, to make sure we were kept busy or productive. If we were bored, we were responsible for figuring out what to do ourselves.

https://nicolelivelong.com/2021/12/20/why-growing-up-in-a-small-town-isnt-boring

I want to be completely raw and honest about everything

Keywords: mother hood , pregnancy

I think we live in a world where no matter how connected we are, through social media, we all still feel alone. Most of us will not admit it. We feel alone even if we have a million followers, or we have a booked-up schedule with events and parties. Even when we have a family, friends, partners, kids, life is lonely. At the end of the day the only person inside your head is you. I cannot cure loneness but if I could help one person feel less alone than they did before that is more than I could asked for. As kid I was always told every feeling I had was wrong. Every thing I thought was wrong. The way the I looked, dressed, everything about me was wrong. I never wanted anyone to feel that way about themselves. Constantly trying to change everything about yourself to fit in. To be looked at as normal. I learned over the years that, that is not normal. I believe in letting my kids be who they are even if it’s not something I understand.

https://beyondthemommystruggle.wordpress.com/2021/09/30/just-the-beginning

I miss how your sole purpose of life was eat, sleep, play and repeat

Keywords: book review , adulthood , childhood , love , parents , random ramblings , sibling

Now that I think about it, I really don’t remember when was the last time I had a hearty laugh. I envy you sometimes because you used to laugh for anything and nothing but still it used to be very genuine one. Laughing is the best medicine, now I understand why you used to be so healthy and now look at me, I seem like a shop of issues.

https://letsimplifythings.wordpress.com/2021/08/17/me-and-my-childhood

The freedom to find yourself is a rare thing nowadays — I want [my children] to have an old fashioned childhood, in that sense, and I don’t think that is a bad thing

Keywords: About , farm , life , live simply , slow living

Plus it is a journey we can take together. Work towards together, as well as learn alongside each other. And I hope we will achieve it one day!

https://gatherandgroworganic.wordpress.com/2021/05/05/why-we-want-a-farm

I want to be a scientist when I grow up but there is a story behind it let me tell it to you

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I like to research and invent new things. Last year I thought of a project a real project that one day or the other but want to make and that is. Do you know in cities like Mumbai, Surat and Nasik are flooded because of heavy rains and in some places like desert in Rajasthan there sometimes water is not there only so I can solve this problem and the plastic can also be less by this.

https://orchidstheinternationalschoolkkh.wordpress.com/2020/11/13/what-do-i-want-to-be-when-i-grow-up%f0%9f%91%a9%f0%9f%8f%bb%e2%80%8d%f0%9f%94%ac

Why do I have to feel like I need to justify myself though?

Keywords: love , save the planet , adoption , adulthood , carbon footprint , childhood , family , life choices , maternal instinct , no kids , parents , relationships

When I was a kid, I didn’t ask myself such a question because I’ve always thought it was the thing to do, the purpose of every woman, the reason we find a partner and get married… It’s only when I turned 30 that I realised my mum would have been pregnant for the second time by that age. And I didn’t feel like I was going to be ready myself anytime soon. I heard a lot of comments such as “You’re turning 30 now, the clock is ticking!” but deep down I think I already knew it wasn’t for me. I didn’t know for sure until my little sister fell pregnant, almost 3 years ago. She announced it with pictures and I cried when I realised she was telling me she had a bun in the oven. I cried with joy, the news made my sister and her husband so happy.

https://biggirlbigcity.blog/2020/10/23/do-you-want-kids