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I JUMPED BIG. I quit my day job and started working at the studio. Even though it was a testing year, a year full of anxiety, a year where I cried every day before going to work for the first three months, it was tuff, it was stressful, it was filled with pressure and it kicked my perfectionism through the roof, but I was there. I was there and I was doing what I had set out to do so many years ago. I was so grateful to be there. I was so insanely proud of myself. I still am to this day. But after the first six months I started to look around to see how the dynamics were, how the people actually behaved and how my future would be in this industry and I was doubting if I was really enjoying that part of the job, if it was worth all that bs that was going on around. I decided that it was worth it. I got to do what I loved, I sat in big studios editing sounds to amazing movies and I loved it. I so often stopped what I was doing, took a breath and just enjoyed being there. But after a year I didn’t get the offer that I had been expecting, I got an offer to stay but the price that I had to pay was much higher than I had expected. I again started to analyze my surroundings and looked at how the quality of life was for the people that had been in the business longer than I had. I am sorry to say it, but I wasn’t envious about it and I didn’t want it. I started to realize that the job I had chased for so many years didn’t fit with the life that I was longing for. It was heartbreaking, totally soul crushing. For a few months I was thinking, going back and forth, wishing, dreaming, hoping, crying. I realized that I couldn’t continue in this business and at the same time, live the way I wanted, so I had to make a decision.
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