As I sit here, I’m beginning to realize that the looking glass which holds the life I dream of living, has become a glass wall that’s been stopping me from living the one I’ve been given, only letting me peer out to see what I feel is missing.
I’ve had a blog for awhile now and love having a space to share my writing when I’m working through something sticky that’s happening in my life. It’s where I write and share when I get stuck.
Keywords: Bereavement , Opinion , Death and dying , Family , Mental health , Health
It suddenly dawned on me that my family did not waste a single minute of their lives; they lived and loved fiercely every single day. I needed to do the same. I went back to my studies at university, curbed my vices and started to live rather than just exist. After all, this is what my family would have wanted for me.
Keywords: Blogging , blog , blogging every day , Experiences , happiness , inspiration , life , thoughts , writing
One of the biggest benefits of writing regularly is the clarity it brings. Thoughts that feel scattered or half-formed become much clearer once they are put into words. Writing creates space to reflect on experiences, notice patterns and properly think things through rather than letting them pass by unnoticed. I’ve also found that it can also be surprisingly grounding. Taking a few minutes each day to sit down and capture an idea, a moment, or a reaction helps slow everything down slightly and helps me to get my brain in gear, ready to start work. Over time it has also helped to build confidence, because the more I have written, the more comfortable I have become at expressing my thoughts and trusting my own voice again.
My life got a new start 10 years ago. I didn’t just turn over a new page of my life I started a whole new book! One thing I learned is a new appreciation for my life and the help I have had from God, my Guardian Angels, my family and friends. My self image changed from being a victim who didn’t trust herself to being a confident, independent, giving and wise woman.
I look out of the window, wondering what it would be like to live an ordinary life. As the coach leaves the town I catch tantalising glimpses of other people’s lives, hanging out the washing, hoisting up the sheets to flap like sails. A young woman pushes her baby buggy purposefully, several Sainsbury’s bags hanging from the handle. Presumably she has a home to go to and an identity, she is a mother.
I will endure what I need to and learn from the process to become successful. If there are people doing it with missing limbs and disabilities there is also room for me to become who I want to be. I am doing and will continue to do everything I need to for my life to become what I want it to be.
This was my time in our country ; now is what I’ve waited for … more than 35 years . His work is impressive . He focused on not only his writing , elevated Slovak literature ; he also pushed to make Slovkia a stand-alone political entity . My man !
My journey into academia was accidental. I’ve always been an introverted nerd who loved studying and struggled in every other work setting, but somehow decided journalism and then PR were for me, got burnt out and depressed (also following an abusive relationship) and thought studying was a way to buy time as I figured myself out. At some point during that studying, I realised research could be my actual job, which doesn’t feel real to this day. In parallel to that, right when I started studying again and went back into academia for my MA in criminology, I took up pole dancing. I was still figuring myself out professionally, so I didn’t really worry about the publicness of pole and of my moderate but nonetheless existing social media profile, also because it did not cross my naive mind that people would discriminate against me just for showing my body (I knew jack shit about sex work stigma then).
You need to know yourself in order to love yourself. I don’t need people to understand me and tell me who I am because I know who I am. I wouldn’t bother trying to understand me, things would just get complicated.