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I realized that that whole chain of traumatic memories and accompanying feels boiled down to two things for me. Fear of abandonment and rejection. Breaking news: when I boil them down and process them almost ALL of my negative self talk and negative emotions are rooted in those fears. That people I *think* love me will just…leave. And the curtain will fall and it will just be me wondering why I make everyone leave.
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Yes I get that insecurity feeling too. That I make people go away . I try and you can too to find out the reason every time and fix it.
But all I know is fear of abandonment and rejection are true feelings and everyone has them.
You , me , my friend, your friend, your neighbor and my neighbor.
All I can say is you are not alone. Coming from that knowledge I don’t find it so so difficult to try agai and again and not get discouraged.
Sometimes it takes time to click and then again sometimes it clicks and then let’s go.
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