Tag: trauma

I want to understand the abuse and trauma from their point of view and forgive it from my point of view

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I just need one sentence to describe my family. They all need to go to therapy. In between all the showers of love and adoration I received in my childhood, there was a lot of their self-baggage inflicted upon me. It led to years of unintended abuse, trauma and neglect from their part. It started to build my anxiety and depression.

https://bubbersandme.wordpress.com/2022/07/30/hello-world

Daddy, Mummy I want Bunny … I want to go home … Help me

Keywords: corona-virus , covid-19 , family , health care , writing , bloganuary , covid , pandemic , polio , toy

I don’t remember the next several months other than visits through the window and people in white, wearing masks, doing things to me. There were periods in a whirlpool tub where a nurse held me while the water moved around me and someone else moved my legs. There was another room where we went to do more exercises, and someone else moved my scrawny legs.

https://imagesbyceci.com/2022/01/04/first-love

I want to become a successful nurse

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We are a good and happy family but a day comes that caused me a trauma. When I am in school when I am in grade 9 ,a one call from my mom made me cry in the classroom. My mom said that they went to hospital and they find out that my father has cancer and it is stage 4. They do all the needs of my father,the chemotherapy and a year of fighting it my father died. That’s why I like dark rooms , I am overthinker and traumatized. I was usually doing things like having fun with my friends,dancing, reading wattpad books.I always do go to church and always thank God for always there. The girl who always bored do that,I also stan a k-pop group named BTS and my bias is Park Jimin,since the day I know them my overthinker and conscious self fade away.

https://j4nely.wordpress.com/2021/12/29/who-am-i

I want people I care about to be happy and I go into DON’T WORRY BE HAPPY mode sometimes

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I realized that that whole chain of traumatic memories and accompanying feels boiled down to two things for me. Fear of abandonment and rejection. Breaking news: when I boil them down and process them almost ALL of my negative self talk and negative emotions are rooted in those fears. That people I *think* love me will just…leave. And the curtain will fall and it will just be me wondering why I make everyone leave.

https://emdrrecovery.wordpress.com/2021/09/25/little-things

Being in a healthy mindset allows me to be reflexive without the turmoil I’d have experienced before

Keywords: Life in general , Personal Growth

For years I had disconnected myself from my own needs. I had found that ignoring them was a survival strategy, experience had taught me that I was safer that way. This wasn’t a sustainable approach. I’d become so good at hiding and ignoring my needs that I spent years going through life numb to the good experiences I should have been having. All my actions were routed in expectations and obligations. When that got too much for me I turned to food, drink and drugs to fuel actions. It was ok that I needed to spend the day in bed, it was a hangover rather than depression caused by my unhealed trauma. It’s fine that I drank before I went out, that was me being savvy with money as I wouldn’t spend so much at the club. My binge eating was tied to the days when I was suffering malnutrition from before my adoption (I don’t recall that, I think I may have made it up. I recall walking to collect water with a container on my head as part of my chores, but never hunger…) and the list of justified negative behaviour that sustained the numbing of my emotions is endless. This was never sustainable, and that’s a good thing.

https://fifipottier.com/2021/09/05/today-everyday-you-matter-are-important

I want this blog to be a resource, not a glorified therapy journal

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But I feel okay telling you that my early adulthood has not been easy. It has often felt characterized less by my successes than a string of traumatic (not a word I use lightly) experiences which I have not always been a willing participant in. This is not to say I’ve never fucked up or made self-sabotaging decisions- I absolutely have. But it has taken me a long time to accept that I have not always deserved the treatment I have received, particularly in a sexual and romantic context. Very rarely, in fact.

https://calamityeve.com/2021/08/14/notes-on-ownership

I hope you continue to pop in while I share my life

Keywords: what is art therapy , art therapy , healing journey , trauma story

I did not expect sharing my trauma story with strangers to be a foundational aspect of my adult life. Especially while entering the mental health profession. I feel like most therapists do not go there on a public level to maintain a sense of professionalism, but, fuck it.

https://creatinglightwithkelsey.com/2021/02/21/welcome-to-the-healing-journey

I work my ass off every day to get a little closer to where I want to be

Keywords: the buildup , encouragment , mental health , rant , trauma , trigger warning , tw suicide , work

I don’t need validation to continue this journey, but it would be so nice. It would just be the sweetest thing to hear from someone else. I scream it at myself every day. I say, “Rudy, you’re doing so much better. You can pretend it’s a secret and get through this. You’re good enough.” I, however, am not a reliable source of emotional information to myself yet. I’m still working on that. Until then, any kind of encouragement is greatly appreciated.

https://victoriacsmith.wordpress.com/2020/12/16/progress-vs-validation