Keywords: mental health and self care , mental health , self hate , self realization , self resilience
This is what I call “the mask”. Developed for myself when I was just nine years old and have worn it ever since. Behind this mask, you would never know just how tormented, pained, lonely, depressed, anxious, sleepless, kind, sweet, thoughtful, helpful, and truly different I am. The mask just shows feigned happiness, outgoing, socially interactive while hating everyone, and deceiving I can be. The mask itself was created to deceive people from being too nosy in to my business. Sadly, it still works to this day 20 years later. The mask deceives people into thinking I’m a people person, that I actually care about how overly forced my social attentiveness is to everything, that I’m happy go lucky, and living the best life ever. In reality, I’m not happy go lucky and won’t be. My social attentiveness is more about how can I persuade people to spend more money and have them think that it was their idea to begin with. Me being a people person is completely laughable because I’m simply not a people person at all.
https://ageminisparadigm.wordpress.com/2022/09/01/a-little-more-about-me
