I work my ass off every day to get a little closer to where I want to be

Keywords: the buildup , encouragment , mental health , rant , trauma , trigger warning , tw suicide , work

I don’t need validation to continue this journey, but it would be so nice. It would just be the sweetest thing to hear from someone else. I scream it at myself every day. I say, “Rudy, you’re doing so much better. You can pretend it’s a secret and get through this. You’re good enough.” I, however, am not a reliable source of emotional information to myself yet. I’m still working on that. Until then, any kind of encouragement is greatly appreciated.

https://victoriacsmith.wordpress.com/2020/12/16/progress-vs-validation

I deserve happiness

Keywords: the buildup , encouragment , mental health , rant , trauma , trigger warning , tw suicide , work

I want to have the tangible proof of my existence post-trauma. I want to be holistically evaluated for my progress between 2016 and now. I want to be unconditionally loved. I want to be listened to and believed and respected. These things take so much time. I am such a tired person. I am constantly planning, advocating for myself, and hoping and praying. I work my ass off.

Progress vs. Validation – Victoria Smith (wordpress.com)