I want people I care about to be happy and I go into DON’T WORRY BE HAPPY mode sometimes

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I realized that that whole chain of traumatic memories and accompanying feels boiled down to two things for me. Fear of abandonment and rejection. Breaking news: when I boil them down and process them almost ALL of my negative self talk and negative emotions are rooted in those fears. That people I *think* love me will just…leave. And the curtain will fall and it will just be me wondering why I make everyone leave.

https://emdrrecovery.wordpress.com/2021/09/25/little-things

As much as I wanted to just leave my bag and head for the car (because I wasn’t in the mood), I had to go get it, so I did

Keywords: christian , dependence , faith , god , journey , joy , peace , relationships , singleness

God, forgive us for trying to take our life in our own hands. Give us wisdom, to let go. Fill our lives with you. God, you are all that I want, you are all that we need. If anyone is like me today, hurting with rejection or feeling alone I pray that you give us a sense of companionship and community. I love you and thank you for giving freely and abundantly! Amen!

https://thefaithjourneyblogger.wordpress.com/2021/09/18/where-it-all-began

I had the courage to make choices in spite of the disapproval of others

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I worked my way through graduate school, taught in the inner city for seven consecutive years, paid my own bills (car payment, car insurance, utilities, rent, etc.). I wrote and recorded my own folk album, and I had at least three romantic relationships. I proposed to a man I loved and was rejected by him and my best friend, I was accused of intentionally deceiving and “stealing” a man because he was interested in me and not my friend; again, I was rejected. My family was both antagonistic and unsupportive of me. Still I “warrior-ed” on. I did not need the approval of these people to be the person I WANT TO BE. I let it go.

https://sweetnessbe.wordpress.com/2021/02/15/be-a-listener