What I wanted to do was read through tons of books and maintain a library maybe, work at a coffee house and paint something on the streets

Keywords: snippets , i am so tired lol , maybe , rants , snippet , who am i , writer

It’s scary, not knowing what you want. And it’s scarier, knowing what you want but having no courage to go after it even when you are living the regret every day. I wonder who was she… I wonder where did she go.. I admire her.. I miss her, even when what I have now, what I am now might have been everything she would’ve ever wanted. But she had something that’s long dead in me – the courage to dream.

https://musingsbyliz.wordpress.com/2021/12/30/who-am-i-now

Someone said something because they wanted to

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We’re all humans and we react in different ways so the least we can do is let go of what was said and accept who we are for what we are. To solve the judging problem, community discussions are needed but the first step and the most difficult one is acceptance — it’s accepting the fact that there is a fear. Only if you accept the fear, can you conquer this fear.

https://ahighschoolersopinion.wordpress.com/2021/12/18/why-do-people-judge-you-all-the-time

Growing up I changed what I wanted to be when I was older probably every other week

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I’ve learned that I can’t control that and it’s nothing for me to stress out about now. What’s most important is living in the moment and being forever grateful for what you have and for what you’ve experienced. I’ve found that stressing about the future has only made me feel worse because it is so unknown and irrelevant right now and once I’ve started to accept that, it has been a much more positive experience.

https://rollinslily.wordpress.com/2021/11/17/fear-of-the-future

I want people I care about to be happy and I go into DON’T WORRY BE HAPPY mode sometimes

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I realized that that whole chain of traumatic memories and accompanying feels boiled down to two things for me. Fear of abandonment and rejection. Breaking news: when I boil them down and process them almost ALL of my negative self talk and negative emotions are rooted in those fears. That people I *think* love me will just…leave. And the curtain will fall and it will just be me wondering why I make everyone leave.

https://emdrrecovery.wordpress.com/2021/09/25/little-things

I’m very aware that this is the only shot at life I’ll get, and I often fear that I’m not making the most of this, as irrational as this may sound

Keywords: lifestyle

That’s a long time ago, she observes. I nod, but it’s true. That’s the last time I felt undiluted happiness, untouched by doubt, anxiety or fear. Since then, there has always been something to worry about, something to take the edge off something great. Will you try and focus on being happy with your life as it is? Perhaps stop waiting for it to get better? I sigh. Yes. I’ll try.

https://anextroversion.com/2021/09/16/the-pursuit-of-happiness

These are my recent thoughts, take it or leave it

Keywords: depression , emotions , fear , hopelessness , life , lost , wonder

I fear that I’ll never find that soulmate and have another family. I’ve always gravitated toward people who have maternal traits or who possess a comforting and guiding trait. I fear to never allow someone in my life who would see that I am full of love and I can give back. I fear that my past limits my future. I fear that I cannot be transparent about the obstacles in my life that have shaped who I am today. I fear that I will not have an impact on people. I fear that I will never want to show love and accept love because of simply it not working out. I fear having expectations because I have continuously been dissapointed. I wonder if hope and prayer is just this false illusion that comforts us in the moments of despair and hopelessness. I’ve always referred to myself as a meandering lost soul. I continue to search for what my passion and drive is, but not certain of how to apply it to make me successful.

https://ellhines.wordpress.com/2018/04/24/fear

I will hit publish before my anxious self can get in the way and put fear in me to either not post or save this as a draft

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I want to push out of my routine and create a new one. A new routine where I write and take photos in addition to working. A new me where if I don’t get my workout in but laughed and played with my family instead I am ok with that. If I want to take some photos the dishes can wait. It’s easy for me to say but harder for me to do as I struggle with OCD and anxiety. I don’t want my children to grow up OCD or anxious like me. I want to encourage my children to grow and explore things and showing them is the best example. My son loves to write and so do I. I am always encouraging him to write but never taking my own advice. So here I am writing.

https://purplemessmom.family.blog/2021/08/06/take-my-own-advice

Some days are just plain tough and that’s okay, there are going to be days that you don’t have it completely under control but cut yourself some slack and don’t take it personally

Keywords: life + style , self care and worthiness , anxiety , helplines , postpartum , postpartum anxiety , self care

Remember you are not alone in this – so many these days suffer from anxiety, seek support from others when you need it, there is nothing to be ashamed of. Reaching out shows strength and also demonstrates bravery for speaking out.

https://justyouraveragerose.com.au/2021/08/09/anxiety-acknowledging-my-anxiety-and-knowing-you-can-overcome-it

Fifty percent of the time I second guess myself

Keywords: Growth , personal development , self-growth , learning to accept , loving yourself , self-growth , smile

Now I know times have changed, really weird for a twenty five year old to say, but I know everyone is on there phones more now than ever. I know so many people, photographers, businesses, even kids use their phones for photos and videos and heck, even creating whole new businesses, but we all struggle with what people think at times. I struggle with my own internal self saying how no one would think my work was cool, or how family would think I was weird for always wanting to take photos of everything. And truth be told, yeah people probably do judge, my friends and family probably do have thoughts as to why I want photos but its not for them. My photos, my work I created isn’t for them! It’s taking something I have in my head and making it real. It’s making myself smile and feel good for doing something I wanted to do. Like this message to you. I tried to take a photo this morning of my relaxing spot, cause ya know it made me happy, and that’s when I heard the voice. So I stopped, then I thought, “why am I doing this to myself?” I am literally the only one here and I’m making my own self feel horrible for simply taking a photo of what made me smile? So in the midst of my morning routine I stopped to write this message cause it was in my head and I felt like it needed to come out. It helps make me feel better to express these thoughts. I dont know, maybe it’ll help you too? Maybe it’ll help encourage you that it doesnt matter for anyone but you what you allow yourself to do, to feel, to think and express. Maybe this will help spark a fire to go express yourself in any way that makes you smile. Maybe you send this to a friend cause thats your way of expressing and helping others. I don’t know, maybe you don’t do anything.

https://healinghouse.home.blog/2021/07/13/take-the-picture