I really really want to enjoy my life now but I’m too busy anticipating the future and kind of cant wait to have things all figured out in the future

Keywords: daily life

I don’t know where the confidence comes from, but I just cant wait for the future to finally come because I feel like I’ll have it all figured out, maybe it’s just me having high hopes because we all know life is full of challenges and ups and downs and surprises so yeah, the future that I’m waiting for might be not as fun as I picture it to be but as for now I’ll just keep that spirit in me.

https://annisaramadhia.wordpress.com/2020/12/17/hi-hi-hi

I want to want things

Keywords: want , desire , thoughts , levi , engaged

I do not know if I have always done this or if this has just started in the last ten years or maybe less. Something has shifted as I have become an adult paying rent and living on my own. I am more worried and sleep lighter; always on alert. I used to enjoy things, now those things are fewer and further between. I have always enjoyed the activities of those around me, even if I came to be the one leading them, but I am not quite sure which activities I love and which ones I have learned to enjoy because of my social circles. I don’t really like anime, but I was an anime club president for a year and if you would like to watch one I will absolutely watch it with you (“No, you’re right. It was pretty cool.”) I enjoy going out but not as much as I like a small group on the couch chatting and playing games with changing rules. I used to write and sometimes I would paint. I used to make cosplays and try Harry Potter inspired cupcake recipes. I used to sing and laugh at work. When did I become unhappy? When did I stop wanting to be happy enough that I did the things that made me happy?

https://nesaspieces.wordpress.com/2021/02/25/what-do-i-want