I want to love myself again

Keywords: thoughts , mentalhealth , selflovejourney

I know self-love is a journey been there done that. But I didn’t believe or dared to even think that I could lose the love for myself. I fell out of love with myself, which, let me tell you – sucks. I’d like to say of myself that I’m very self-aware -which I still believe I am. However, I don’t understand how I could be self-aware and yet still go down this road of falling “out of love” with myself. I’m not sure how it happened. I do have a few ideas which I’m not going to share publicly because that is a very personal issue, but let’s move on.

https://anitaklos.com/2021/07/07/i-am

Despite all eight million outcomes of a life, it seems like mine is supposed to be here

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i’ve been wondering if i’m supposed to settle for someone or not trust my gut & shame myself for not having feelings for someone – like I should even though I don’t… I think it stems from a concern that I will never meet someone with the level of understanding & friendship that i’m dreaming of. but then I was listening to this song about this girl who met someone that feels perfect & right & I was like, I mean every love song in the world can’t be lying right. & then I decided that it’s just going to have to stem from faith. & for the time being, i’m going to trust my gut with these things & stop stringing things along that I know ultimately don’t feel right. so I guess you could say i’ve had this hesitant conviction to not lead men on so much. dot dot dot. eek. I can be selective, I rlly can. & not just go with the flow. I think I need to just do less going w the flow in general. nothing wrong w being a girl who knows what she wants. & I feel like in life & overall, I have a pretty decent idea of what I want.

https://mpru.me/2021/06/12/raw (visited 2021-06-12)

I’m starting to think I want to have a daughter someday

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Somehow this reminds me of our connection to God, whoever that may be. I nurture my puppy, and she nurtures me. God nurtures me, so I can nurture my puppy. And I please God by doing good deeds and loving others. Love is what connects us all to one another, and love is that feeling of happiness when you discover how much that person or dog’s existence means to you. Someone once explained to me: perfect circles don’t exist in nature, but we know that they exist. In the same way, there must be a perfect version of a person, and the journey of becoming closer to that person, or God, is what life is for. That made a lot of sense to me.

https://pinkestsummer.wordpress.com/2021/05/16/self-awareness