I’ve been struggling with being consistent and being ready to finally choose me, choose to finally go after what i want

Keywords: monday motivation , goals , new start , next chapter , purpose , self worth

i feel like damn all these years went by with my same goals every year but didn’t achieve all of that yet because real life gave so much stress, looking at all the things i didn’t have instead of looking for a change and have positive thoughts. Now that i’m a mom life hits different, more motivated than ever, the timing is now. I’ve waited too long for this, but now I choose Happiness, I choose to show my daughter that it’s never too late to go after what you truly want in life and that you can achieve everything you put your mind too. I’m so ready for The next chapter and to show the world my creative mind.

https://angiesal.com/2021/08/23/the-next-chapter

I would cry looking at the calendar and seeing there were so many days left

Keywords: motherhood

Mentally i think i was losing it. 1. The stress of not being able to take care of my son the way I want to because I am the size of Texas and had the energy level of a pea. 2. Not being able to keep up with my sons growing energy levels 3. Being closed off from most of society and being stuck at home due to the pandemic 4. Pregnancy hormones. All of this makes a disgusting combination of one hell of a hot mess which was me. except i wasn’t even hot.

https://masalachaitime.home.blog/2021/07/19/my-second-pregnancy

I used to be the most important person in their lives, but they’ve grown up without so much as a backward glance

Keywords: life at 40 , growing up , motherhood , woman

I peer back into the past to see if I can catch a glimpse of an earlier version of me, but that person was young and full of insecurities. And our dreams no longer match up. I’m wiser now, rounder in both body and spirit, and with mileage in my soul, I see barely a shadow of myself in the younger version of me. Like an oak tree contemplating an acorn I suppose. There is something quite liberating in this activity though. Pleasure floods through me when I realise I am no longer as fragile, no longer as desperate to be liked or no longer as hungry to make my mark on the world. I am, I come to a startling conclusion, content. I mull this concept around in my mind for a while. Contentment. It is so far from what I think I wanted in life, and yet, I like the way it feels. Smooth. Pleasing. Comfortable. I’m shrugging this on, like my new furry coatigan, while I work out what I want to do for this next stage of my life. How I want to spend my time and energy, which is less boundless than it once was. And I come to the conclusion that this stage of life is a gift. An opportunity to think again about where to direct oneself. It comes with the acceptance that there is no destination that does not fly past before you’ve had time to unpack and change the bed linen. Life is flow. Life is motion. Life is what happens between events. Life must be lived in the moment.

https://sharlenezeederberg.com/2021/06/15/growing-up