These are my recent thoughts, take it or leave it

Keywords: depression , emotions , fear , hopelessness , life , lost , wonder

I fear that I’ll never find that soulmate and have another family. I’ve always gravitated toward people who have maternal traits or who possess a comforting and guiding trait. I fear to never allow someone in my life who would see that I am full of love and I can give back. I fear that my past limits my future. I fear that I cannot be transparent about the obstacles in my life that have shaped who I am today. I fear that I will not have an impact on people. I fear that I will never want to show love and accept love because of simply it not working out. I fear having expectations because I have continuously been dissapointed. I wonder if hope and prayer is just this false illusion that comforts us in the moments of despair and hopelessness. I’ve always referred to myself as a meandering lost soul. I continue to search for what my passion and drive is, but not certain of how to apply it to make me successful.

https://ellhines.wordpress.com/2018/04/24/fear

I’ve realized that I desire love, but I want to control it

Keywords: blogs , connection , dating , emotions , feelings , life , lifestyle , love , pain , romance , self awareness , self improvement , trauma , validation , vulnerable

My emotional unavailability is due to me feeling like I have to control how relationships play out. It took me a while to realize that I was seeking validation from the connection more than anything.

https://queenmediacollective.com/2021/08/26/im-emotionally-unavailable-but-i-like-you

I want to love myself again

Keywords: thoughts , mentalhealth , selflovejourney

I know self-love is a journey been there done that. But I didn’t believe or dared to even think that I could lose the love for myself. I fell out of love with myself, which, let me tell you – sucks. I’d like to say of myself that I’m very self-aware -which I still believe I am. However, I don’t understand how I could be self-aware and yet still go down this road of falling “out of love” with myself. I’m not sure how it happened. I do have a few ideas which I’m not going to share publicly because that is a very personal issue, but let’s move on.

https://anitaklos.com/2021/07/07/i-am

When neither of your parents, or anyone in your family has ever really been needy around each other, it doesn’t really set the precedent for you to be open, vulnerable, needy or fragile emotionally

Keywords: general , life , writing , blogging , growing up , life , long read , observations , ranting , thoughts , writing

Strength is praised, weaknesses cause irritation and rectification. Flaws are not to be accommodated, only fixed.

https://mattwilliamsonlive.wordpress.com/2021/06/07/reflections-2

Making the decision to publish my innermost thoughts & reflections on this blog was a win for me

Keywords: wellness , accomplishments , how do you define your worth , internal narratives , self love , transactional love , upholding expectations , vulnerability

Pulling the trigger to share it publicly denoted courage I never thought I’d find to throw my insecurities, imposter syndrome, & fear of being judged to the wind in order to prioritize my healing.

https://notesbynani.com/how-do-you-characterize-your-worth

I want to build a support focused service in the community that works alongside other services – not in competition with

Keywords: entrepreneur , female , introductions

You see, I come from a career in employment and housing support. I have worked with societies most vulnerable and I specialised in helping people with mental health issues, long term health conditions and disabilities. I’ve walked with clients to food banks, I’ve talked them down from depressive periods and I’ve been that only person they feel able to open up to. It was actually doing this I realised there is always a need of support but not always the right people available – you have to remember an employment advisor taking a client to the food bank is 100% out with their job remit. But we do it, because helping people isn’t a straight forward path.

https://femalesocialentrepreneurs.wordpress.com/2021/02/15/time-for-introductions

I need a place where I can be more of myself, where I can write about daily life, daily thoughts, daily struggles, the wins and losses of a life lived rather dangerously

Keywords: introduction

I want to write about random things. Shallow and deep thoughts and everything in between. I want to spread the full texture of my days and the details that possibly only I will find interesting.

https://fromthetinystudio.wordpress.com/2020/12/26/hello

Being authentic means being vulnerable

Keywords: authentic living , balance , change , healing , imposter syndrome , self mastery , authenticity , be yourself , emotional healing , healthy mindset , how to be authentic , perfectionism

It’s sometimes more comfortable not to go there but the goal here is to help you grow and expand. Being authentic means being honest with yourself and others when you don’t want to do something. It means stepping out of your comfort zone and getting a little uncomfortable. It means trying something a little risky or out of the norm for you in order to learn and understand who we truly are and what makes you unique.

https://michellethompson.ca/2020/12/10/how-to-be-more-authentic-with-others

Embracing the fact that it’s reallybloodyokay to have feelings and wants and needs and to be big and bold about them

Keywords: {0}

Maybe I need a safe space for that to happen. And by safe space, I probably mean a safe relationship. Before you start, I really don’t subscribe to the idea that it’s ‘pathetic’ to want a relationship – they’re what life is all about – so I will continue to aspire to being in a healthy, committed, loving relationship. And not to fix me necessarily, but to allow me that room and safety net to be more. To be me.

https://teacupsandtrainers.com/2020/11/17/more-or-less