Despite all eight million outcomes of a life, it seems like mine is supposed to be here

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i’ve been wondering if i’m supposed to settle for someone or not trust my gut & shame myself for not having feelings for someone – like I should even though I don’t… I think it stems from a concern that I will never meet someone with the level of understanding & friendship that i’m dreaming of. but then I was listening to this song about this girl who met someone that feels perfect & right & I was like, I mean every love song in the world can’t be lying right. & then I decided that it’s just going to have to stem from faith. & for the time being, i’m going to trust my gut with these things & stop stringing things along that I know ultimately don’t feel right. so I guess you could say i’ve had this hesitant conviction to not lead men on so much. dot dot dot. eek. I can be selective, I rlly can. & not just go with the flow. I think I need to just do less going w the flow in general. nothing wrong w being a girl who knows what she wants. & I feel like in life & overall, I have a pretty decent idea of what I want.

https://mpru.me/2021/06/12/raw (visited 2021-06-12)

There [are] so many things I want to tell you, so many new stories I want to share with you but I sadly can’t as you’re no longer “my” person and I’m no longer yours

Keywords: love , thoughts

Maybe one day we will meet again? Maybe one day we will meet again strangers who know each other a bit too well. Till then, I wish you all the best. Thank you for the past 2 years.

https://cherrrvel.blog/2021/05/30/meeting-you-was-a-nice-accident

I can only be the best that I can be, not what others want me to be

Keywords: life , college , education , hey girl hey , i am trying , justagirl , money , struggle bus

I am saying that they expect me and will force me to do what is ideal in their eyes when it comes to career and life decisions. There have been times where I say just stop doing this to yourself and leave, but it is like an abusive relationship. I have stood my ground and told my parents to just straight up stop because I cannot handle the constant debt on my shoulders even though you say it’s not there.

https://justagirlog.wordpress.com/2021/05/28/money-money-money

I realized that I could either continue on the path that the world wrote for me or start my own

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My first thought was that I want out. I didn’t want to be part of the society and culture anymore. I wanted to make my own decisions, fend for myself, and survive on my own the best I could. I didn’t get very far because I realized that I didn’t even know how to get food unless it came from the grocery store. This is when I started to connect all the dots. I couldn’t get food unless I had money. I couldn’t get money unless I had a job. I ended up right back where I was in the first place. I poor college graduate working a low wage job just to scrape by.

https://andrew-judd.com/2021/05/14/why-i-made-this-blog